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I think that after a few nights of paranoia, insomania and basic sadness...I've recovered into a more suitable mental state. Sorry for claiming that I was leaving everyone. Luckily I chose the option of deleting everyone in my friends list, than deleting the LJ itself. Overall, I think I'm 'okay' now. Now that I think things over, I feel a bit stupid. I easily fall into a trap of words. I suppose I just have to learn how to control how things affect me. Remembering when I had first read that stupid convo, I tried not to let it affect me. Yet it clearly did from that very day. Anyway I think I'm through with that......ah...I currently have no backgound anymore--because well not sure. I can't make my Moi dix Mois layout exactly how I want it. I want it to be all 'The Prophet' themed. I think I may just make a quick Malice Mizer 'Garnet' themed layout. Not sure. And my dancing Klaha icon did not come out;-; I want a Dancing Klaha icon damn it. That and some fabric!! Along with these stupid cosplays I'm doing, I also would like to make a sketch come to life! Oh yeah and I finished reading 'Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoniex'. I kind of want to read this book 'Demons and Angels'. It looks interesting. I saw it on a catalogue for about $8. I may just get it. This reminds me..Viktor needs fabric paint. I have a nifty/bootleg idea. I also need a fucking job and I need to reserve my spot at the zoo....I want buttons!! .....Okay....after gathering myself once again...I've come to the conclusion I need sleep.. as well as taking 'Perish' out of the loop. Second time around hearing it, I got sad...